June 2023 – elle est forte

almost summer

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Calmness in the midst of chaos
Quietness among different voices
Basking to still foreign sounds
Realized it no longer engulfs

Inside a serene four-walled place
Smells of coffee made the day
Perhaps own solitude skyrocketed
But it’s great living inside the head

Loneliness comes and goes
Happiness is a choice
Lingering questions
Deciphering answers

Should you stop or should you go
Holding on or letting go
Either way serves a lesson
Within you is the right decision

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The hardest part of all
Not the beginning
But the end

Saying goodbyes
Unspoken words
Parting ways

Teary eyes
Joyful heart
Warm embrace

Letting go
Moving on
It’s finally end

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To end everything
A passing thought
Or unconscious desire

Fear of future uncertainty
Tremble with worry
My own mind mocking me

With many lies
The truth hides
I am never wise

2023

Feelings, why is it so complicated
I knew what I feel for you
But never plan to tell you
Cause it is still new

Once you know me little by little
I hope you won’t change
I’m just being me
Enjoying myself freely

Either you will be intimidated
And you might think
I’m kinda overbearing
Because I’m present in everything

Or you might belittle me
Because I am not worthy
Or not working hard enough
Or just plainly ignorant

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I am now a butterfly
No longer a caterpillar

In the past years
I realized
I am inside a cocoon
Alone in the dark
To prepare for a change

A change that is so good
Which I myself
Cannot even fathom

To a new beginning
That I only dream about
I spread my wings
And now enjoying the flight

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In the middle of this dark room
Luminescent light peeks in its form
Sleep won’t come so I stare and bore
Wondering what I am doing all along

Being still and doing nothing
Feeling lifeless but still breathing
Still life and living still
Still here yet barely there

Move, move they say I must move
But you know I’ve got nothing to prove