Poetry

almost summer

221013.230606

Calmness in the midst of chaos
Quietness among different voices
Basking to still foreign sounds
Realized it no longer engulfs

Inside a serene four-walled place
Smells of coffee made the day
Perhaps own solitude skyrocketed
But it’s great living inside the head

Loneliness comes and goes
Happiness is a choice
Lingering questions
Deciphering answers

Should you stop or should you go
Holding on or letting go
Either way serves a lesson
Within you is the right decision

Poetry

0407

2023

Feelings, why is it so complicated
I knew what I feel for you
But never plan to tell you
Cause it is still new

Once you know me little by little
I hope you won’t change
I’m just being me
Enjoying myself freely

Either you will be intimidated
And you might think
I’m kinda overbearing
Because I’m present in everything

Or you might belittle me
Because I am not worthy
Or not working hard enough
Or just plainly ignorant

Poetry

still life

221204

In the middle of this dark room
Luminescent light peeks in its form
Sleep won’t come so I stare and bore
Wondering what I am doing all along

Being still and doing nothing
Feeling lifeless but still breathing
Still life and living still
Still here yet barely there

Move, move they say I must move
But you know I’ve got nothing to prove

Poetry

the three-leaf clover

June 25, 2022

We often focus on the extraordinary
Even the non-existent in reality
That we overlooked the ordinary
And neglect its natural beauty

Just like a three-leaf clover
Simple yet beautiful in its order
Covering land to make it greener
Giving life to the scorching Summer

People say four-leaf clover gives luck
So everyone tries to find it without slack
Only to be disappointed for continuous lack
Because life remains feeling stuck

I myself don’t believe in luck
For I know God has my back
Every blessing that I have had
Came from Him, there is no doubt

Books

I decided to Live as Me

by: Soo-Hyun Kim

*here are the few words that struck me the most while reading this beautiful book

Even though it’s not our fault, surrendering to injustice more than the injustice itself is the real fatal blow to one’s self-esteem.

In the book ‘Ways to Make Yourself Miserable’, it says that the easiest way to feel miserable is by taking a peek at the lives of others and comparing them to yours.

True value isn’t measured in numbers.

We sometimes meet people who misinterpret, distort, and criticize our intentions.

People humiliate others to validate their existence and compensate for their feelings of inferiority with this taste of superiority. It’s pathetic.

Even if we don’t become what we expect to become, even if we have to bear the feeling of being insignificant, we should face our true selves, and not make excuses.

The essence of self-esteem is self-trust, self-respect, and believing that you deserve happiness.

People who suppress their desires in order to do what they have to do lose the sense of what they like, what they want, and eventually, who they are.

If you chase external values without looking at your inner self, you’ll always live with comparisons and never reach real happiness and self-respect.

For individuals to live a life with self-respect, it’s important to understand their talents and choose a job where you can apply them.

The essence of life is uncertainty.

It’s okay to be selfish and somehow irresponsible. There’s nothing more irresponsible than abandoning yourself until you are suffocated with responsibilities.

People who will exploit our anxiety to earn a profit are everywhere and we can be easily lured. Therefore, stop doing your best anxiously only to prove yourself or to conform to the crowd.

You don’t live to be understood by these narrow-minded people, and your life is yours alone.

Poetry

unfiltered

November 2021

No matter how much you hide
I can see all of you in my naked eyes
Your bruises and past hurts
Your madness and all outbursts

You try to fight your bad thoughts alone
And grasp all ugly truths on your own
Persevere and work hard in solitude
Now everyone praises you with gratitude

Now you are stronger and happier
Became more honest with yourself
Celebrated life’s ups and downs
Knowing life has great lessons surrounds